Go Pats!

I know that I haven't written in a while, lots and lots going on. However, I wanted to give a shout out for the Pats!! Hope everyone have a fun and safe Super Bowl Sunday:)

Is it normal to hate work as much as I do?

I hear people talk about how much they hate their job...but I honestly feel that I hate mine 2349203480934380% more than they do. It's not like I can say, I like what I do, but I don't like the company, or I don't like the people. I honestly hate what I do. Some of the people that I work with are OK, but some of them, I would pay money to never see them again. Ok, this blog may be coming off as kind of harsh, but work is seriously stressing me out lately and a few people at work are the cause of this stress.....

What should I do in this situation? There is not much I can do really....I have a meeting with my boss tomorrow to try to talk to him about some of my concerns, but honestly, he hears and sees what he wants and I really doubt that anything I have to say will change his option or will he be able to give me advice on anything...

So I am left with a delemna, a job that I truly hate and that is ruining my life. I don't sleep, I barely have time for myself and I am constantly stressing. I hate to complain in the form of a blog, But I just needed to get it out there....

I guess I will stick it out for a bit...but for the first time in almost 5 years, I am thinking about looking elsewhere...

Anyone have any suggestions?

Big Decisions

So, I have a pretty big decision to make about my "alien baby". I have actually been thinking about it and obsessing about it all afternoon, after meeting with my Dr and also the surgeon that would be doing the surgery. Basically I need surgery...that's not a question, but the decision of when to have it and to go on a drug that could potentially shrink the fibroids so that the incision is smaller is what is causing my brain to go into meltdown. The drug has some serious side effects and my Dr could do the surgery even if the fibroids are the size they are now (and I need to add that my largest one is HUGE, like a 4 month pregnancy or something like that). I have 3 total, 1 giant and 2 babies.

Right now, I am leaning towards having it down without the drug. That way, I get it over with, I have no drug that will cause me to go crazy, and I will leaned and ready to go for my friend's wedding in June and also be able to enjoy the summer.

Of course, with every major surgery, I am scared and I am doubting every decision that I decide on. I just want to make the right decision, if there is one. Hmm....I guess I will just think about it for a few more days, then call the Dr back and either decide to go on the shot, or schedule the surgery. The earliest I would have surgery if no drug, is late February early March.

I will keep you all posted on the birth of the Alien Child.

Time for a Change

Every so often I feel like I need change. Or a hobby. Or something interesting to spark my creative juices flowing. I am having one of those feeling over the past few months. At first I felt that I needed to put my energy into buying a house. Then I put my energy in trying to lose weight (we all know how that works out for me). Then I decided I need to learn something new or decided what I want to do for work for the REST OF MY LIFE.

So ya, every so often I guess I feel that my life has reach a boring point and I reach for something that is going to stimulate my brain and also make it more exciting to go through the day.

So the other day, I went to Barnes and Noble and picked up a few books on Small Businesses...hmm...maybe I will learn about starting a business?

But I also am thinking that I need a new car (another story). So I might aim for June for the new car thing...I will keep you posted. Let me know if you have any suggestions on cars/SUVs.

Feels Like a Sunday....

but thank got it's only Saturday, phew. Here are a few reasons why it feels like Sunday to me.

1. The level of stress and thinking about work is definitely on a Sunday level.
2. I ate dinner over my parents house, which I usually do on Sunday.
3. The Pats are on
4. John is leaving for Texas tomorrow so he won't be stayng over my house tonight.

So, at least I have tomorrow to REALLY think it feels like Sunday. Hope everyone is having a good weekend. GO PATS!

Beware the Subway at the Liberty Tree Mall

As many of you NoSho natives know the Liberty Tree Mall is pretty known for it's Ghettoness. Besides the movie theater, best buy, Marshall's and Old Navy there is pretty much nothing there (Oh, ya Target is there too). But anyhow, I have gone to the mall food court a few times to enjoy a Subway sub. I am not sure why I keep going back, but I do. The first two times the line just took about 45 minutes to get through with my sub. The person that I went to the mall with literally got her food, sat down and ate before I even had a sub in my hand. The last time that I went I was ready for a long wait; I was prepared. So I waited in line and finally made it to the front and ask for a sub. They didn't have what I wanted, that's OK. So I asked for Ham, didn't have it. Asked for Turkey....nope. Roast beef? Nope....so I finally asked what they have.....they were like Chicken...ok....so they slapped Tereaki chicken on the only piece of stale bread that they had and basically just made my sub asking me nothing about what I wanted on it...and wrapped it. I was a little pissed, but I was on lunch break and I didn't have too much time.....so I then asked for a Diet Coke.....again she looked ME as if I had three heads and was like, "I think we are out, let me check if we have a can hanging around." Was she serious?

So I wanted out of there with a sub I didn't want and probably a 10 year old can of Diet Coke...lol..awesome.

But after relaying this experience to others...I have heard they have also had this experience....wtf....a Subway without deli meat, bread, soda or chips?

Anyway, if you are at the LTM and decided you want lunch hit up McDonalds...

Very Quick Update

I just wanted to update everyone on day 2 of my New Years resolution. Well, I woke up and did 30 minutes of cardio this morning. Went to hell as usual (aka work), counted my WW points throughout the day and night, and then came home and did another workout with John tonight.

Right now I am about to crash....and get ready to wake up bright and early for 30 minutes more cardio tomorrow morning.

Hopefully this lasts longer than a few days!

Just wanted to share....

a super cute picture of my cat! Happy 2008 everyone:)

New Year's Resolution

Each year I make a New Year's Resolution to lose weight. This resolution is mostly for me health wise as well as emotional wise so that I feel better about myself. This year I am not letting this resolution stop before the end of the year. I am at my highest weight probably ever and my health needs it more than ever as well, as surgery is probably on the horizon for me.

So this year, my resolution is to fit into the bridesmaid dress that I will have to fit into in June. To lose weight to feel better about myself and to be healthier.

I want to keep this blog going throughout my journey for both support and to keep me honest. So if I start to get off path..please some get me back on track!!

Good-Bye to Christmas

I consider New Years Day the very end of Christmas. It's the day I start to take down the decorations, the tree and start to clean up the mess that has taken over my house. I know that we still have a couple of days until this day is here, so I am sitting here enjoying the decorations and the tree. The mess that has taken over my house is not so great though and I definitely need to take care of this before I have company over Monday night. So because the tree will be leaving soon, I wanted to share a couple of pictures of it with you.....enjoy!

Quick Random Gossip!

A very good friend of mine and a very reliable source told me that NKOTB, yes, New Kids on the Block, will be having a reunion tour in 2008. So if you thought that 2008 was going to be a bummer think again and "Hang Tough!"

Post Christmas Blog

I hope that everyone had a very Merry Christmas, ate too much and got everything that they asked for. I honestly can't complain. I had a great holiday (even though I had like no time off from work). I saw many good friends and spent quality time with the family.

Christmas Eve I went to my Nana's house. Traditionally we have gone to 4 o'clock mass and headed over to the house around 5:30 after mass. However this year is the our first Christmas without my grandfather and it appears that I have just given up on mass gradually over the past few years..soo...my Nana ended up having us over at the bright early hour of 3:30. We had a great time and ate A LOT.

Immediately after that I headed to my boyfriend's house for Christmas Eve dinner...yup, dinner...like I needed more food. So being polite I took food onto my plate and ate as much as I could. However, when his dad plopped the biggest piece of pie I had ever seen in front of me, I thought I was going to die...so I left the pie there and tried to not look directly at it, because I was afraid I might puke. After dying, John and I exchanged gifts and he gave me an awesome digital camera that I love! I actually might end up buying a photo printer with the money my parents gave me for xmas ...but we will see...

Christmas morning we visited my Nana again and the headed down to my Aunt and Uncle's house for our annual xmas celebration. It was fun and again I ate WAY too much!! We did get our Annual Camp Ghetto Fabulous gear...sweatpants..and they def rock. (if you want more info on Camp Ghetto Fab..check out CampGhettoFabulous).

Overall I had a great holiday and I hope you all did too! The only bummer was that I had to go to work the next day:( I am just glad that tomorrow is Friday..yay!! And I have next Tuesday off as well ...not New Years Eve...but I guess I can't have the word...lol

Update of sorts

So, I received the cord for my computer and I am back up and running...sorta...haha. Because I was having a hard time living without my computer I decided that while it was dead I would clean the keyboard. I am obviously not an expert in this area...because I now have my computer back, but my "N" key and my "," are both missing....that's right!! They fell off while I was cleaning the keyboard and I can't get them back on. This wouldn't be SO bad, except now I have lost the pieces that connect the keys to the keyboard and I now have two holes in my keyboard where the keys should go. I am such a moron. At least I can still get the key strokes to come out..haha...with a little effort.But anyway that's the update of my computer...stupid...stupid...stupid....

A Few Confessions

1. I can't live without my computer. I know that I definitely don't go on my computer nearly as much as I used to. However, I honestly go in to panic mode knowing that I can't check the weather, the movie times or my email at the drop of a hat when my computer is not working. So yes, the power cord to my computer is broken and I have one ordered and on the way....but as you can see I can't stay away from a computer for more than 24 hours or I freak out! So I have borrowed my sister's computer, check my email, ordered some snow boots on LL Bean (my feet are still wet from showing that freakishly heavy snow from today), quickly went on Myspace and Facebook and now I am blogging!!:)

2. I am obsessed with Christmas time made for TV Family Channel Movies. I don't care how cheesy they are or how many times I have seen them in the past, I love them. Yesterday alone I think I watched 3 of them; two of which I had definitely seen before. But I am a huge sucker for Christmas movies and romantic comedies and I continue to watch them as many times as I possibly can before the season is over!! I will also admit that I just checked the TV schedule for tonight...although I don't seen any Family Channel Movies that look good, I did find a good one on the Hallmark Channel called "All I Want For Christmas" and I am definitely going to partake.

3. I have been a total slacker with Weight Watchers and working out for the past month and I am totally ashamed:( So I am back on track tomorrow. If I want to go away in February I don't want to feel like the Whale that I know I am right now!!


Thanks for letting me confess....ttys!

Great paint job!

I was riding home from work today (going pretty slow because of the snow) and I looked to my left and saw this disgusting looking paint job on this house that I was passing. It was bright yellow with bright red trim around all doors, windows and around the roof. I seriously was laughing to myself and wondering how I had never seen this house before. As I got further past, I realized that there was a very large sign with the painting contractor's name on it placed proudly in front of this horrible looking home. Now, I am not sure if they put the sign there to advertise there terrific work....or if they put the sign there to warn others to stay away from this color blind contractor:)~

Alien Baby

As many of you know I have never really had any reason to go to the hospital or had any things that have been wrong with me. I have seriously only had the flu like 4 times in my life and rarely have a cold....so when I went to my doctor's and there was concern about something in my uterus..I totally freaked!!!

But after many doctor's appointments, ultra sound, next week MRI, and many hours of googling my ailments, I have been told that I am not dying..haha...but that I have a large or very few fibroids in my uterus.

At first this was freaky, but after learning that only 1 percent of them are cancerous and learning my options, it is less freaky and I have been just looking forward to the future. I know that I will most likely have trouble having children in the future which is sad, but I after talking to a few people that did struggle to have kids, I have learned that it will be OK. So right now I am most likely going to need surgery, but the MRI will tell them exactly what will need to be done.

SO of course in the meantime, I have been making jokes about the "Alien Baby" that is inside of me. Seriously, whatever is in me, is so big I that feel pregnant and I can't wait for them to shrink or be removed....so in the meantime I have named my Alien Baby "PF CHANG" and I'm not sure when it will be born...but I will let you know!!

Mini Rants and Apology for not blogging

I know it has been a while since I have last blogged. A lot has been going on that has kept me quite occupied and I promise to blog about it (although kind of personal) in the next day or two. But in the meantime I have a few things that I need to complain about so others can either help me or laugh along with me.

I have been at my current job for almost 5 years. Holy shit, I know, that's a long time, but in that time I have grown quite the thick skin for very evil people. I have only cried, I think 3 times in those 5 years, and although many people probably have never cried at work, I think this is pretty good considering the abuse that I take daily. Since becoming a senior adjuster, the number and intensity of evil people has certainly increased (since I am the person that the evil person requests after being evil to the first person). The woman that I spoke to on Friday had to be the worst of the worst. I honestly don't understand how a person can call up to a complete stranger and be so mean. I can take, yelling or screaming or insults in general, but when that person is making it so personal, using so many swears directed in your direction, you can only take so much before either 1. going postal or 2. shedding a tear (and I did the latter). However, what my complaint is this....does this person not realize that she has hurt a human being? A person that will be driving home, replaying the insults and yells in their mind, a person that now has a ruined evening because of her evilness? How would this person like it if she was screamed at, call a moron, stupid and a bunch of swears and then excepted to leave work and have a great evening? Grr...It just frustrates me so much. I would never be evil to another person, no matter how angry I am!!

So I walked up to my front door this evening after work and found a business card stuck in the door. Now to preface this story a bit, my grandfather has a very old Ford Van in the backyard of the house that I live at now. this van has a ton of memories for the family and we promised each other that we would not get rid of this van until my grandmother passed away. OK....so it's been over a years since my grandmother's passing and the van is still in the backyard. I am not sure if it runs or has anything in it for that matter.....I am pretty sure that it has quite a few weeks growing up in there....but anyway, I am kind of scared to look into. So anyway, I come home to find this business card stuck in the door and in blue pen on the back of the card it reads, "I am interested in the van in the backyard, please call" So I turn the card over and it has some business and in blue pen the name, "Mark". All I have to say is SKETCH. Now, if someone wants to haul this van out of here, more power to them...but the van will be missed very much.....I promise to up date you all if the van is actual removed!

Not much else is going on in Katherine land. I got my tree which like always acts as a giant cat toy for Dizzy. But I love having a real tree and it wouldn't be Christmas with out it. I have finished my Christmas shopping (shocker I know..since I am always a last minute person). My job is a living hell like always and I can't wait for the weekend!!

Must end the blog now, as Dizzy is actually removing the lights from the tree! I will write again sooner than you think;)

Sorry about the no blogs lately

So, I have taken a small break from blogging. I am not sure why but the mood hasn't been right for blogging lately. The past two weeks have been good. Last weekend was the 4th annual Halloween party at the Plutnicki house. It was a ton of fun! Everyone showed up in awesome costumes and we had great time. Because of that night, my boyfriend and I did get into a pretty large fight, but things are back to normal now and we have definitely made it up to each other. He spent a good chunk of the weekend with me and came by with a beautiful bouquet of flowers:)

I also decided because of the rain last night that we should stay in, make dinner and relax. But because I didn't feel like watching a movie, I decided to spend that $20, on a ghetto replica of the old school Atari! I went into Radio Shack, put down my purchase and the sales guy said, "please tell me you are retuning this". Now, I had no idea what to say!! I was looking forward to plugging the unit in and playing an exciting game of Breakout!! So I said, "no, buying it". Then he said, "is it for you?" I was going to say YES, and tell him that I was planning on playing it ALL night, but I opted for "no".....and left it at that.

So, needless to say, it definitely brought back memories of being 8 and playing Atari on a black and white TV on the floor in my bedroom. But it was as fun as $20 can give ya.

So, that was my past two weekends in a nutshell. And my weight loss journey has also not been so great. I need to step it up a few notches I am still down 12 lbs...however, I need to be down A LOT more. And I have a doctor's appointment next Wednesday, that is not going to go so well having gained quite a bit of weight in the past year.... oh well!

So I have included a few pics from the Halloween party. Enjoy!! Hope to see you next year!1

Halloween=devil worship?

I think not. I was actually told today by someone that they didn't want to come to my Halloween Party because they didn't stand for the meaning of Halloween. Now, honestly, I look at Halloween as an excuse to have a party and dress up and be silly (and maybe get a little drunk). I look at it as a day to be someone else, let loose and have some fun! I also look as Halloween as a day that children look forward to because they too get to dress up and get CANDY!

I am truly very open with all religions and beliefs. But to have someone tell me that I am worshiping the dead and honoring a satanic holiday is ridiculous!! I just wish that person could understand that I am not a devil worshiper and understand we are just having a little fun.

(Side note, I am actually being a devil this year!! How ironic is that!!)

Anyway, so dress up and come on by to my party and let's have some fun and worship the dead yo!!

The Things You See....

Before a long day today, I stopped by Dunkin Donuts for a nice cup of JOE. While I was in line, I witnessed a woman come in the door yell, "Are you that 'Traffic Cop' that's parked illegally outside!". I turned and and sure enough there was a cop behind me. He replied," I wasn't aware that I that that wasn't a parking spot". On that note, I grabbed my coffee and exited the building....

Sure enough directly in front of me was a large van with the words "BEVERLY TRAFFIC" on the side that was parked completely illegally, practically beached in the middle of the parking lot.

Needless to say, if I that cop ever stops me for a parking violation I will have something to come back at him with!!!

Quick Confession

I cheated SO badly on my diet the last two days. Stress, emotional, plus my Dad's bday today really made me mess up:( I am feeling very guilty and needed to confess it publicly! Thanks for listening....I promise to never eat again...JK!

Rough Weekend

Many of you know that we had our "Family Yardsale" this weekend. After the yardsale, I got "the call" from my mother. She infored me and my sister that my grandfather had passed away. Michelle, Jen, John and myself were on our way to the imfamous China Jade to enjoy a well deserved lunch when my mother called to let us know that he had already passed and we should come to say our goodbyes.

I have gone though two other grandparents deaths, and I not saying they were easy, but I honestly think they were easier for me. They were both in a nursing home, not doing well, and they were both not sure exactly what was going on. The death of this grandfather was honestly a surprise to me. Yes, he was not well, but every time I saw him he seemed to be OK. He was at home living with my Nana, walking, talking and he was fully aware of the going's on around him. I guess the past two weeks, he was getting worse and on Friday he was put on Hospice. Not even a full day of Hospice and he passed away.

It is also very hard because he leaves behind my Nana, who is breaking my heart. Even though we are telling her constantly that she will OK, she insists that she will never be OK and she will never be able to live without him. I can't imagine, being married to someone for over 60 years and have them leave you. I feel so badly for her:( But she is a strong woman and I know she will be OK. She says that my grandfather left us knowing that the red sox were winning and even though he didn't see them clinch the division, she says that he knew they would do it. She says that she is very happy that he died watching a game and a team that he loved.

So needless to say, I miss my gradfather very badly. He was such a nice man, who was always there for myself and my family. He was the first to help me with my homework, my work problems, and to help me when I locked myself out of my car/house on numerous occasions. He had such a dry sense of humor and loved to make us laugh. He was such a great man and I know that he touched the heart of everyone that met in his life.

So today I talked to my grandmother about things to occupy her mind, like what two outfits she will be wearing for the wake and funeral.what my grandfather will be in, how she will set the table for the guests afterward etc. I think she is doing sooo much better today and I know that each day will get better for her. Plus, I know she is sitting home with a glass of wine right now ...a woman after my own heart;)

A repost-

A request was made for a repost of the Jon Knight blog. I know it always makes me smile:) So enjoy!!

It's that time of year.....

So, the Topsfield Fair starts next weekend and I am totally excited. Work has been kicking my ass lately and I honestly need something to look forward to constantly in order to make it through life. SOooo..the next exciting thing coming up is the FAIR!

There are many things that make the fair so fun! The food, the atmosphere, the rides, the carnie workers, the animals, the crazy people and the games!! There is one thing that I will not be doing this year and that is seeing The Littlest Woman in the World. So, if you are free and want to hit up the fair and eat some grease...let me know!!

I know that John is excited to play the dart games and win me a Guns and Roses poster...heheh

Spreadsheets and Process Maps

I was at a day long training the other day and the trainer asked the class to raise your hand if as a child you "wanted to a claims adjuster when you grew up". My answer to that question was, " I don't want to be a claims adjuster NOW". Not that I don't love working with the people in my department, because most of them are really nice and very cool. There are a few odd balls that tick me off or ask me stupid questions about stupid claims, but most are great to work with. But it is the getting screamed at on the phone and getting so much work piled on your desk other than the claims with screaming people so that you can't even get to the screaming people claims, that is ticking me off.

Today at 3 o'clock my boss told me I had to finish a "process map" on one of our claims process by "this time tomorrow". Now, this task alone does not seem very hard. However, keep in mind that I already didn't do a spreadsheet that GE requested today, I am 3 days behind on claims first contacts (which means those people have already called and left voice mails yelling at me for not calling them), I am trying to think of 2008 cost saving initiatives for a meeting tomorrow, I have stacks of papers on my desk that will eventually lead to people filing DOI complaints or bad faith claim against me (side note that is what the above training was on), I have a bunch of adjuster's mad at me and asking questions about the spreadsheets I sent out to the earlier today for them to finish, and I also have call scores and file audits to finish by month end which I haven't started . Ok, thanks for letting me vent..


But in all seriousness, I never thought that I would spend my day, when not getting screamed at by angry people, working on spreadsheets that honestly mean nothing to me but just take up hours of my day, and process maps, which are just circles on a page with arrows pointing to them, that make no sense at all yet every manager and VP in corporate America seem to need one of these to understand a process that they have never even dealt with!!!

Now I am just venting about this, but seriously can people honestly not understand how to work a claim from beginning to end without a pape with circles and arrows that make no sense????


OK...I am out. If you need me tomorrow I will be working on spreadsheets and process maps..maybe someday I will actually get to do my other work. he he

WW results!

OK. So I got lucky! I went to WW tonight after not being there for 2 weeks and actually lost. I was expecting a gain of about 12o93408320498234328094823. However, I lost .6. I know it's not a lot but it is something and I am still at my 10 lbs lost.

I have a very far way to go to get back to the weight I was this time last year, but it is doable (that is my mini goal!).

Ok. Thanks for listening!:) PTFO!

Biggest Loser

About 2 months ago I blogged about rejoining Weight Watchers to get things back under control (my weight that is) and since then I did lose about 10 lbs. That would be great, except for the fact the past two weeks I have been HORRIBLE and I missed those meetings. So tomorrow is D Day. I am going back and facing the scale again. Now, I am trying to prepare myself for the absolute worst, gaining all the weight I lost back, but deeeeeeeeeep down inside I a hoping that it won't be so bad.

But if I am planning on going on a vacation in January I am definitely going to want to be a bit thinner so I think that will be good motivation.

So, I will be honest with myself, face the scales tomorrow, and blog to all about my gain:( WAH

I NEED A VACATION!!

Ok so I was thinking back to the last time I went on a vacation, Sophomore year of college. Then I realized that that was 7 years ago!! WTF is up with that! I need a vacation!

So I have been trying to get a group of willing peeps together to go on a rad vacation before I am old and wrinkling living with 10 cats!

So right now it appears the vacation will happen in January at some point and that said it will have to be to some place warm.

So come people...help me get away!:)~

Tennis Wannabees

Today John and I played tennis at a court near his house. I know that neither of us are very good, but we have a good time attempting to play (or at least volley) for an hour or so to burn a few calories and have some fun. Today was pretty warm out so we only play for about 45 minutes before we decided to quit. We went back to his truck and sat there for a while with the AC blasting trying to cool off.

While sitting there I was looking out the window and up pulled a black BMW convertible with what appeared to be a very wealthy couple inside. They parked illegally very close to the courts. Out jumped the woman (dressed in a very short tennis skirt and tight tank top with expensive sun glasses) and then the man who was also dressed up in his expensive tennis gear.
The woman popped the trunk and the man took out a very expensive looking (his and hers) tennis racket back and they proceeded to go onto the court.

I told John to wait a minute because I thought that we were going to watch a couple of pros play tennis for a while. However, once they go onto the court (although dressed for the part and obviously wealthy enough for tennis lessons) they were like worse than John and I!!! The woman bounced the ball and attempted to hit it over the net while the dude on the other side watched the ball bounce about 10 times before attempted to knock it back over the net. I started to laugh......are they serious?!!??!!??!?

Fall Fever!

Once a cold day hits in the middle of August I always get excited about Fall. I love fall for many reasons, the changing of the leaves, pumpkins, warm scented candles and sweaters! But one of the most exciting parts of fall is Halloween! I love all the pumpkin carving, the roasting all the pumpkin seeds and having Halloween parties!

Now I may be a dork, but every year I throw a Halloween Party and dress up! This year a lot of people have asked me about when the party will be and what I am going to dress like and this has added to my fall fever:) Now, most people would think it crazy to think about a Halloween costume 2 months ahead of time, but my sister, her friend and myself all had a "think tank" last night trying to come up with costume ideas! I even wanted to start making the guest list and idea for decorations..but I thought that might be a little much.

Every year I toy with the idea of being many things and I always end up waiting WAY to long and having to run out the night before to grab any costume that is left on the shelf. Well, this year...I want to save money and try to make most of my costume so I need to start thinking a head of time. After much deliberation I came to the idea of being a devil! Of course I need an Angel at my side so I picked up my phone and text messaged John telling him that I am going to be a devil for Halloween and he needs to be an Angel....

About 1 hour later I get a text message saying, "sure, I will be an angel! An L.A. Angel (baseball player). Not exactly what I was looking for...but good enough for me!!!

Anyway...I am very excited for fall and the Halloween. There will be many updates as we get closer I am sure:)

Crazy Peeps on the Highway

I usually love driving home from Maine on Sunday evening in the summer. I can drive with the windows down, with my favorite songs on the radio and can think about anything that is on my mind for the 2.5 plus hours that I am going to spend in the car.

Today like the usual Sunday evening there was heavy traffic all the way through New Hampshire, which is fine and expected, except today, there were 5 crazy motorcyclists on the road in front of me. Now, normally motorcycles freak me out anyway, just because some of the drivers can go pretty fast and weave in and out of the cars, but tonight I was seriously scared.

The five of them in the middle of the route 95 and with heavy traffic decided to try out and perform all the motorcycle tricks that they ever learned. They first started out standing on their bikes with no hands. Now, this freaked me out and I totally slowed down to almost a stop because I was so scared that one of them was going to fall off and I would fun over them! They then decided to do wheelies over and over again. The trick that really ticked me off was one where the kid got on both of his knees and then popped a wheelie and proceeded to drive down the highway at 80 miles per hour weaving in and out of the cars.

Now I don't want to sound old or lame ,but this really freaked me out and I was completely appalled. I honestly thought for 1 second that it would serve them right to fall off the bikes! But then I decided that the thought was too evil and decided that if they all were to get pulled over by the police that would be OK too;)

Anyway, I am home safe, didn't run over any motorcyclist and totally ready for bed!!

Heading up to G FAB

I am heading up to Camp this weekend to get away from this craziness that I call life. For some of those who know me, know that I can be a bit emotional and I have odd ways of dealings with things. Last night I was SO upset that JP didn't want to go to the concert I bought tickets for, I basically broke up with him over the phone, removed all photos of him from Myspace and changed my status on Myspace and facebook. This is a kind of therapy that I use on myself. I used to remove people's names from AIM and take their phone number out of my cell phone when things happened. Now that I have entered the online world, the measures are a bit more intense.

Needless to say, he ended up coming over and we talked. I am such a wimp. I am great when it comes to talking on the phone, removing status from online and taking people out of my phone....but when face to face with someone I totally crumble. Not with just anyone, but especially current bf, because he is super sweet, and he really loves me....and I know that anything he does is not to intentionally hurt me.....BUT it is still very frustrating!!

Anyway, just wanted to forewarn that if you see your name or photo removed from any of my online things, it is not that I don't like you..I am just going through a "thing".

SO CONFUSED!!!

That is all...I just have no idea what to do. Sometimes I think I am too nice. Sometimes I think I am too insane. I just can't decide what I want to do......

For now, I am going with the flow! No matter what the Psychic said...lol

Telling the Future..

Last November I visited a Psychic with my friend. At that time I had just met JP and we were beginning our relationship. At that point he was completely all about spending time with me, getting to know, and we had a great time. BUT this psychic said that she didn't think that he was, "the one". That he was most likely very depressed and had some family issues. She also indicated that she didn't think that he would be ready for marriage anytime in the near future. Well....at that time, I didn't put any weight into what she said and I continued dating him. Well, about 2 weeks ago I listened to the tape of my psychic visit again and pretty much everything that she said about JP was true. How sad!

Well he is currently on a journey to find himself, to better his job and think about his future. And me and marriage or a future don't seem to be part of his plans.

Although sad....I definitely knew this was coming..I mean really...only the psychic and everyone I know has said this to me.

Blasts fom the Past

Unfortunately after graduating high school it is hard for many people to keep in contact with the people that they spent those 4 years with. During that time you spent time going to class, trying to make friends, tying to be accepted, and having a blast with your closest friends. But once you graduate and get a job or go off to college it is difficult to stay in contact with some of these people.

Well a few weeks ago I received three blasts from the past. One girl that I went to high school with found me on Myspace and we have caught up a little through online. I wasn't the best of friends with her doing school, but it was great to see what she has been up to lately.

I then received two more emails, one through Myspace and one through my regular email address. Each email was from a different person, but both were very good friends of mine through high school. They were the friends that at graduation you swore you would never lose contact with, they were the ones that you would stay in contact with for the rest of your lives. Well, needless to say, this didn't happen and both people decided to email me within days of each other.

To be honest I had mixed feelings about writing either of them back. I kind of felt responsible for losing touch with them and was almost embarrassed to now have to face them. Well, last night I met up with one of them at Starbucks and I had a great time. Her life has changed so much in the past few years; it was so interesting to catch up. Hopefully we will keep in touch!

Well, the other email that I received a bit more intimidating. It was from a girl that I went to grade school with and also high school. She wanted to get basically 4 or 5 of us from high school together for a cookout. Now, I have not seen anyone of these people (except for the one that I saw last night) in about 5 or so years! I am very scared. She actually emailed me again last night to confirm the date of this cookout. I suppose I should suck it up and go...however, I am very scared and I not sure if I will have anything in common with these people ....sooo....I have a decision to make..I will let you know the out come later:)

Craziest intersection in Beverly....

Sometimes I swear that I live on the craziest intersection in Beverly...Over the past 3 years since I have been living here I have experienced some of the craziest things! One winter I experience a hit and run. The driver that was hit almost landed right in my driveway. The other car drove away as fast as he could. Then the hit driver, parts of his car all over the street, decided to chase after the other car with his bumper hanging off!! Another time I was sitting in my room and I hear a very loud bang. I look out my window and this car had hit the lamp post outside! The lamp post is still leaning a little bit over and the light is still not as bright as it used to be;) And I have definitely witnessed many accidents at this intersection over the past years, but nothing as insane as Friday. I am not sure how it happened but I hear a few huge bangs and I looked out my window and there was a car completely on it's side in the middle of the street, still running, smoking and a dude limping away. The other car had a couple in it, the woman completely freaking out saying that she hit him! Needless to say, the cops blocked off the street, the firefighters had water aimed at the car, and the dude was taken away in a stretcher.

I am actually sitting on my porch writing this blog, and about 5 minutes ago there was almost another accident! Some guy ran the stop sign and the other car going straight thought that beeping would help! Sooo...needless to say, there was a lot of tires screeching and a near accident once again at the corner of Corning and Hale.

Update

So after packing up all my bf's stuff putting it in a large bag, I saw him today and was going to give it back to him. He has been very stressed with work lately and definitely has not been making much of an effort to be a around when I need him. I am faced with making one of the hardest decisions of my life. If I were to break up with him, it would not be because he isn't a super smart, super nice guy. It would be because he is trying to get his life in order and he really doesn't have anything else on his mind at the moment.

We talked today and he told me that at this time in his life he is really trying to grow up, get his work/money/life in order and he really gets scared or stressed to even think about marriage or kids right now. I honestly wouldn't want him to jump into anything drastic without having his life in order so I completely understand. However, I did tell him that I don't know how much longer I can wait for him to be ready. He did tell me that he can picture himself committing to me, however, I know right now he is not sure when that commitment would be made.

I know that I am super emotional and have been with all my past boyfriends, some of which couldn't handle the stress that my emotions can cause. So I know that when I am upset, my emotions definitely take over and I can take things to the next level or make things seem much worse than they really are. So if this past week I have been complaining about my current relationship, while most of it is true, I am not as happy as I would like to be, it is also because I definitely take things to the next level and sometimes blow things out of proportion. Most times, I just need to vent to make myself feel better.

So right now, I do enjoy spending time with my bf and we do have a great crazy time together. I did give him back all his stuff....except for a few dvds which I will keep and probably watch ...haha...and I am going to keep my options open. I am still committed to him (I would never cheat on anyone) however, if I meet someone and things click before current bf besides h is ready for a more grown up relationship, I might just have to move on....but for now..I will take it day by day, have fun with him when I see him, and do my own thing in the when I don't.

Not like I don't have enough stress with work, trying to lose weight and attempting to save money to buy a place. SOO...why add more stress...just one day at time....

Bad Choices

I am not sure what my problem is but when faced with a decision about a relationship I usually make a bad choice. Twice in my life now I have been faced with making a decision between two guys that I was started to date. I personally find it really hard to juggle two guys that I am dating at the same time, so at some point I am forced to make a decision. Both times, the choice that I thought was correct, I thought I was following my heart, ended up to be the bad choice. I am not complaining or wishing that I could turn back time, however, I do want to know how to make a better choice, how to know which guy is better for me. I am just tired of starting a relationship and having the person not be the right one for me. I don't want to me the girl that has a 100 boyfriends and never settles down. HELP! haha.

Pictures from Camp GhettoFabulous

Spending my vacation week in Maine was awesome! Great weather, fun times and fun people. It was a relaxing week with the girls and a great weekend with more friends and family. Here are just a few of the photos that I took while I was on vacation. I look fat in most of them, so I posted most without me in them..haha. Hope you enjoy!

What a beautiful day:)

The Awesome Camp Fire!!


Michelle and John chilling on the boat!


Marc Captain on the aforementioned boat!

Jen, Michelle and I looking hot around the camp fire.

I think it was windy that day;)

CAMP GHETTOFABULOUS!

Feeling sad

I try not to normally write too much personal stuff in my blogs in fear that people will read them and REALLY know my inner thoughts and feelings. But sometimes writing about those things does help with getting the off the mind.

So I have been dating my bf for about 9 months now and over the course of the nine months he seems to have mini breakdown's literally every 3 months (on the dot, no joke). So being 3 months from his last one he decided to have one this weekend. I could kind of feel it coming because last week I could feel him distancing himself. So this weekend came and he disappointed me a couple of times with trying to cancel plans. He is basically obsessed, in love with, and the only thing he cares about is learning for work. He honestly would sit at his computer for the rest of his life, no friends, no family, no sunlight and work at his computer. So I try to get him away from his computer and spend time with me and my friends. Well...this weekend he pretty much indicated that I take up too much of his time (even though I have only been seeing him 2 times a week) and that this being his first relationship he is not sure what he is feeling.

Well....what I am hurt most about is that I spend a lot of money on tickets to his favorite band for his birthday and he is not excited about going and he is definiately not appreciative of the fact that I bought him the tickets. Well, fuck him, fuck this relationship and I am taking the tickets and taking someone else to the damn concert.

I am usually not this evil in my blogs, but I am really hurt about the entire thing and have to do some serious thinking. I feel that I should break up with him and start to date someone that appreciates me and the things that I do for him. I honestly don't even think that he would miss me if I stopped talking to him; he would probably just live in the darkness of his parents basement in front of his computer for the rest of his life; no friends, no fun and no life.

Ok..time to think!

Katherine

For the past 6 weeks....

I have been back in action as a Weight Watcher. Last year on the program, I lost almost 30 lbs....however, I gained it back plus more...and I wasn' t very proud of it. So for the past 6 weeks I have been hitting up the meetings with my friend in hopes of losing the weight that I gained. However, last week I went to Maine for the week and missed the meeting. But I also ate everything that wanted which caused a gain of +.6. However, overall I am still at -7.4-so it was OK. I will just have to get back on track next week.

Tonight at the meeting it was the usual business...most of the same people and some new. There are a few interesting people that come to this meeting. My friend and I have decided to sit on the side almost in the corner behind this larger man. He is probably around my age and it appears that he has been hitting up these meetings for while because he has lost about 30 lbs. However today at the meeting as we are talking about not eating and clearing our homes of all bad food I look over at this guy. He was bending over putting something on the table next to him. Now, I can spot it from anywhere...IT WAS A SNICKER'S WRAPPER!!! Seriously??? At a WW meeting...you felt the need to reach over and do this!??? Oh no you didn't!

Anyway...that is the update from the hoood tonight. I will be back SOOON.

Second Annual Summer Cookout

Since my last post of last year was about my cookout...I decided that being a year later, I should also start my blogging with an update from this years beginnging of summer cookout. Because not many people could make it last year, I decided to make this cookout the weekend before the Fourth of July and because of the intense mosquito situation last year decided to make this cookout in the middle of the day. The tiki torches were still present..of course!!

So...this year a lot more people came. Some of the same people from last year couldn't make it, which was sad (because my cookouts rock!!) but it was still a very fun time.

This year we had a few new additions to the cookout....the volleyball net, the newly painted picnic table, two kids, three Johns, one Sean and also my found skills on the grill!!!

Here are some pictures from the cookout...don't be jealous if you weren't able to come;)~

Back AGAIN!!!

I know a lot of you didn't think that I would EVER be back up and blogging...but here I am..yet again. I know my last post was over 1 year ago, and because that is very sad, I decided that I will start to blog again. There were many exciting things that have happened to me over the past year, many good and many bad, but my spirits were not in the blogging mood.

But I have decided once again, to let everyone read my most inner and personal thoughts!!

Thanks for reading...again...;)~

Pics of the cook out!

West Nile? You must have been to my cook out!

In honor of Independence Day, I thought that it would be kind of cool to have a cook out. I mean, I do have a big backyard that is never used, so the idea seemed perfect. I let all of my friends know of this event a good month in advance to make sure that all could come....well...let met tell you about the cook out...

The first problem came with "the picnic table". Well, I didn't have one. My friend offered me a table that he and his uncle had built and I quickly took him up on this offer. Well...the table never showed on Sunday but finally came on Wednesday...three days before my cook out...a little close..but it did finally made it here.
I stalked up on food and decorations (tiki torches, flags, sparklers) and I set up the day of the cook out. It was suppose to start at 4pm. So... at 4 my sister and I walked outside and waited...and waited...and waited. Now I found this to be funny...we seriously were staring at each other and laughing occasionally to lighten the mood. Michelle looked at me and said, "if no one shows up by 5pm, we are totally packing this shit up and going inside." I agreed.

Finally around 4:45pm...instead of crying..I headed out to the front of the house to flag on coming cars to see if anyone wanted to enjoy a cook out with us. Then I noticed in the distance a familiar car. It was my friend Melissa from work. Now, I was completely embarrassed to bring her to a cook out that has been going on for 45 minutes with no one there...but she was a good sport. The three of us sat there and decided to cook our own burgers at 5:30pm if no one else showed....well..guess what...at 5:30pm we decided to start the bbq. (now mind you, I was promised by two other friends that knew how to use a bbq that they would be there to show me how to use the grill. Now...yes, you got it. They never showed up!!) Soo...we lit the bbq and we made a huge mess. During this disaster Sarah showed up and took over the grilling. We lost one burger deep down into the grill and all the others were a bit..burnt. But ya know..we tried.

Finally a few other people stopped by and it ended up being a good time. I let "the Joels" (the only two dudes that actually showed at the bbq) take over the grilling and it was a good time. Except for one thing. The mosquitoes! Everyone was getting eaten alive by the bugs in the backyard. I thought that I was prepared with four giant citranella candles, but I was wrong. We all had a good time up to that point though;)~Many people were missed that night...some people I am still looking for because they told me they would be there and never showed....hmm....wonder what happened to them?;) JK

Overall a good time. I will attach pics so all to enjoy:)

More Maine pics...

If you like these pics...visit CampGhettoFabulous.com for more fun stuff :) Probably the only time I will have my picture taken in a bathing suit;)
Marc getting the party started around the camp fire;)
Michelle looking sexy!
It was hot enough to get Michelle in the water:)

The boat is in the water!!!!

First weekend back up in Maine...

I finally made it up to Camp Ghetto Fabulous this weekend. It was a beautiful weekend and we had a lot of fun! Although Michelle did take anyone out, I didn't sink the boat again, Marc didn't blow anything up and Jen did cause any havoc...it was still a great time;) But don't worry...we do have the rest of the summer for all the above to happen or even some more fun things! Jen starting the night off right with some drinks!!
That's right...Jenn started that fire with out the help of Marc and a gas tank;)
Jen and Michelle acting SOO cute!
Aww...the three girls!
The start of the big fire!

Crazy pics from the sox game!

I had a ton of fun at the sox game the other night. Here are a few of the worst pics. It makes it that much betterSo excited that it stopped raining and they played!!:)
Best seat in the house-right here!
Umm..no more pics please...
Me and John.....doesn't it look like we are having a ton of fun!;)
Poor David Wells:(

Random Pics of Dizzy!!

Sunday night...

Sunday nights after a long weekend are always a bummer. This Memorial Day weekend was a lot of fun and I really hate to see it end. I had a lot of plans that were cancelled, some that were spur of the moment and other's that were actually planned; overall this weekend was great. Friday night my friend John and I went to the Red Sox game. After a slight scare that the game might be cancelled, the rain stopped and we got to see the Sox beat Tampa Bay! (pics of the game will be coming up later this week). Saturday I enjoyed the weather with a few friends and then went to a movie, Sunday I also enjoyed the weather and had a cookout at my parent's house and today I had a few things planned but actually had two cancelled but still had plans with a friend during the day so we went to the beach. After that did some cleaning and visited the parents again to watch the sox. And now, I am watching the end of the Sox game and dreading tomorrow. At least it is a 4 day week:)

Jon Knight?

Last night, like a lot of Sunday nights, I met up with my friend Jacyn at Starbucks to enjoy a good cup of Joe. As we were sitting there enjoying our drinks and talking Jacyn caught someone in the corner of her eye. Now this was not just an ordinary someone, this was someone much more than that. It was JON KNIGHT!

She leaned over to me mid conversation and she whispered, "hey, isn't that Johnathan Knight?!" Just those two words for some reason caused both of us to burst into uncontrollable laughter. I am not sure why we thought this was so funny. Maybe because we were the only two people in Starbucks old enough to know who this character was, perhaps it was because he was sitting there acting all cool while his cell phone continually blew up, or because we were actually sitting 4 feet away from a former NKOTB memeber.....

After we laughed for about 5 minutes straight, tears coming down our faces, we finally pulled it together and left the building. Jon and his "friend" probably thought we were insane. I guess Jacyn has spotted him several other places as well like "Nick and Tony's" and "Pier One Imports" where he would purchase lovely candles. So if any one would like a autograph...let me know..I am sure I can track him down for ya;)

Back up and running

In honor of my new computer and because the past two months have been so boring with blogging I am back!

Easter Candy

Now....as you can tell from previous posts...I have cravings for chocoloate once in a while. But the cravings seem to get worse around Easter. There is something about Easter candy that is better than Halloween candy and is WAY better than just the normal chocolate.

Now...I had already had chocolate today..I know...horrible since I am in a constant battle to lose weight (Erin don't worry....remember Chinese FOOOOOD)....however (and I can't believe I am admitting this), today I was about to hop on my treadmill.....when something in my head was thinking about those little chocoloate mini eggs. I convinced myself that I had already done horrible today, took off my work out clothes, threw on some jeans and headed to CVS. While at CVS I purchased a little bag of those devils and also about $25.00 worth of other crap and then came home where I proceeded to eat some of the chocolate.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!

Seriously...back to normal tomorrow:)