Update

So after packing up all my bf's stuff putting it in a large bag, I saw him today and was going to give it back to him. He has been very stressed with work lately and definitely has not been making much of an effort to be a around when I need him. I am faced with making one of the hardest decisions of my life. If I were to break up with him, it would not be because he isn't a super smart, super nice guy. It would be because he is trying to get his life in order and he really doesn't have anything else on his mind at the moment.

We talked today and he told me that at this time in his life he is really trying to grow up, get his work/money/life in order and he really gets scared or stressed to even think about marriage or kids right now. I honestly wouldn't want him to jump into anything drastic without having his life in order so I completely understand. However, I did tell him that I don't know how much longer I can wait for him to be ready. He did tell me that he can picture himself committing to me, however, I know right now he is not sure when that commitment would be made.

I know that I am super emotional and have been with all my past boyfriends, some of which couldn't handle the stress that my emotions can cause. So I know that when I am upset, my emotions definitely take over and I can take things to the next level or make things seem much worse than they really are. So if this past week I have been complaining about my current relationship, while most of it is true, I am not as happy as I would like to be, it is also because I definitely take things to the next level and sometimes blow things out of proportion. Most times, I just need to vent to make myself feel better.

So right now, I do enjoy spending time with my bf and we do have a great crazy time together. I did give him back all his stuff....except for a few dvds which I will keep and probably watch ...haha...and I am going to keep my options open. I am still committed to him (I would never cheat on anyone) however, if I meet someone and things click before current bf besides h is ready for a more grown up relationship, I might just have to move on....but for now..I will take it day by day, have fun with him when I see him, and do my own thing in the when I don't.

Not like I don't have enough stress with work, trying to lose weight and attempting to save money to buy a place. SOO...why add more stress...just one day at time....