I try not to normally write too much personal stuff in my blogs in fear that people will read them and REALLY know my inner thoughts and feelings. But sometimes writing about those things does help with getting the off the mind.
So I have been dating my bf for about 9 months now and over the course of the nine months he seems to have mini breakdown's literally every 3 months (on the dot, no joke). So being 3 months from his last one he decided to have one this weekend. I could kind of feel it coming because last week I could feel him distancing himself. So this weekend came and he disappointed me a couple of times with trying to cancel plans. He is basically obsessed, in love with, and the only thing he cares about is learning for work. He honestly would sit at his computer for the rest of his life, no friends, no family, no sunlight and work at his computer. So I try to get him away from his computer and spend time with me and my friends. Well...this weekend he pretty much indicated that I take up too much of his time (even though I have only been seeing him 2 times a week) and that this being his first relationship he is not sure what he is feeling.
Well....what I am hurt most about is that I spend a lot of money on tickets to his favorite band for his birthday and he is not excited about going and he is definiately not appreciative of the fact that I bought him the tickets. Well, fuck him, fuck this relationship and I am taking the tickets and taking someone else to the damn concert.
I am usually not this evil in my blogs, but I am really hurt about the entire thing and have to do some serious thinking. I feel that I should break up with him and start to date someone that appreciates me and the things that I do for him. I honestly don't even think that he would miss me if I stopped talking to him; he would probably just live in the darkness of his parents basement in front of his computer for the rest of his life; no friends, no fun and no life.
Ok..time to think!
Katherine
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