Fall Fever!

Once a cold day hits in the middle of August I always get excited about Fall. I love fall for many reasons, the changing of the leaves, pumpkins, warm scented candles and sweaters! But one of the most exciting parts of fall is Halloween! I love all the pumpkin carving, the roasting all the pumpkin seeds and having Halloween parties!

Now I may be a dork, but every year I throw a Halloween Party and dress up! This year a lot of people have asked me about when the party will be and what I am going to dress like and this has added to my fall fever:) Now, most people would think it crazy to think about a Halloween costume 2 months ahead of time, but my sister, her friend and myself all had a "think tank" last night trying to come up with costume ideas! I even wanted to start making the guest list and idea for decorations..but I thought that might be a little much.

Every year I toy with the idea of being many things and I always end up waiting WAY to long and having to run out the night before to grab any costume that is left on the shelf. Well, this year...I want to save money and try to make most of my costume so I need to start thinking a head of time. After much deliberation I came to the idea of being a devil! Of course I need an Angel at my side so I picked up my phone and text messaged John telling him that I am going to be a devil for Halloween and he needs to be an Angel....

About 1 hour later I get a text message saying, "sure, I will be an angel! An L.A. Angel (baseball player). Not exactly what I was looking for...but good enough for me!!!

Anyway...I am very excited for fall and the Halloween. There will be many updates as we get closer I am sure:)

Crazy Peeps on the Highway

I usually love driving home from Maine on Sunday evening in the summer. I can drive with the windows down, with my favorite songs on the radio and can think about anything that is on my mind for the 2.5 plus hours that I am going to spend in the car.

Today like the usual Sunday evening there was heavy traffic all the way through New Hampshire, which is fine and expected, except today, there were 5 crazy motorcyclists on the road in front of me. Now, normally motorcycles freak me out anyway, just because some of the drivers can go pretty fast and weave in and out of the cars, but tonight I was seriously scared.

The five of them in the middle of the route 95 and with heavy traffic decided to try out and perform all the motorcycle tricks that they ever learned. They first started out standing on their bikes with no hands. Now, this freaked me out and I totally slowed down to almost a stop because I was so scared that one of them was going to fall off and I would fun over them! They then decided to do wheelies over and over again. The trick that really ticked me off was one where the kid got on both of his knees and then popped a wheelie and proceeded to drive down the highway at 80 miles per hour weaving in and out of the cars.

Now I don't want to sound old or lame ,but this really freaked me out and I was completely appalled. I honestly thought for 1 second that it would serve them right to fall off the bikes! But then I decided that the thought was too evil and decided that if they all were to get pulled over by the police that would be OK too;)

Anyway, I am home safe, didn't run over any motorcyclist and totally ready for bed!!

Heading up to G FAB

I am heading up to Camp this weekend to get away from this craziness that I call life. For some of those who know me, know that I can be a bit emotional and I have odd ways of dealings with things. Last night I was SO upset that JP didn't want to go to the concert I bought tickets for, I basically broke up with him over the phone, removed all photos of him from Myspace and changed my status on Myspace and facebook. This is a kind of therapy that I use on myself. I used to remove people's names from AIM and take their phone number out of my cell phone when things happened. Now that I have entered the online world, the measures are a bit more intense.

Needless to say, he ended up coming over and we talked. I am such a wimp. I am great when it comes to talking on the phone, removing status from online and taking people out of my phone....but when face to face with someone I totally crumble. Not with just anyone, but especially current bf, because he is super sweet, and he really loves me....and I know that anything he does is not to intentionally hurt me.....BUT it is still very frustrating!!

Anyway, just wanted to forewarn that if you see your name or photo removed from any of my online things, it is not that I don't like you..I am just going through a "thing".

SO CONFUSED!!!

That is all...I just have no idea what to do. Sometimes I think I am too nice. Sometimes I think I am too insane. I just can't decide what I want to do......

For now, I am going with the flow! No matter what the Psychic said...lol

Telling the Future..

Last November I visited a Psychic with my friend. At that time I had just met JP and we were beginning our relationship. At that point he was completely all about spending time with me, getting to know, and we had a great time. BUT this psychic said that she didn't think that he was, "the one". That he was most likely very depressed and had some family issues. She also indicated that she didn't think that he would be ready for marriage anytime in the near future. Well....at that time, I didn't put any weight into what she said and I continued dating him. Well, about 2 weeks ago I listened to the tape of my psychic visit again and pretty much everything that she said about JP was true. How sad!

Well he is currently on a journey to find himself, to better his job and think about his future. And me and marriage or a future don't seem to be part of his plans.

Although sad....I definitely knew this was coming..I mean really...only the psychic and everyone I know has said this to me.

Blasts fom the Past

Unfortunately after graduating high school it is hard for many people to keep in contact with the people that they spent those 4 years with. During that time you spent time going to class, trying to make friends, tying to be accepted, and having a blast with your closest friends. But once you graduate and get a job or go off to college it is difficult to stay in contact with some of these people.

Well a few weeks ago I received three blasts from the past. One girl that I went to high school with found me on Myspace and we have caught up a little through online. I wasn't the best of friends with her doing school, but it was great to see what she has been up to lately.

I then received two more emails, one through Myspace and one through my regular email address. Each email was from a different person, but both were very good friends of mine through high school. They were the friends that at graduation you swore you would never lose contact with, they were the ones that you would stay in contact with for the rest of your lives. Well, needless to say, this didn't happen and both people decided to email me within days of each other.

To be honest I had mixed feelings about writing either of them back. I kind of felt responsible for losing touch with them and was almost embarrassed to now have to face them. Well, last night I met up with one of them at Starbucks and I had a great time. Her life has changed so much in the past few years; it was so interesting to catch up. Hopefully we will keep in touch!

Well, the other email that I received a bit more intimidating. It was from a girl that I went to grade school with and also high school. She wanted to get basically 4 or 5 of us from high school together for a cookout. Now, I have not seen anyone of these people (except for the one that I saw last night) in about 5 or so years! I am very scared. She actually emailed me again last night to confirm the date of this cookout. I suppose I should suck it up and go...however, I am very scared and I not sure if I will have anything in common with these people ....sooo....I have a decision to make..I will let you know the out come later:)

Craziest intersection in Beverly....

Sometimes I swear that I live on the craziest intersection in Beverly...Over the past 3 years since I have been living here I have experienced some of the craziest things! One winter I experience a hit and run. The driver that was hit almost landed right in my driveway. The other car drove away as fast as he could. Then the hit driver, parts of his car all over the street, decided to chase after the other car with his bumper hanging off!! Another time I was sitting in my room and I hear a very loud bang. I look out my window and this car had hit the lamp post outside! The lamp post is still leaning a little bit over and the light is still not as bright as it used to be;) And I have definitely witnessed many accidents at this intersection over the past years, but nothing as insane as Friday. I am not sure how it happened but I hear a few huge bangs and I looked out my window and there was a car completely on it's side in the middle of the street, still running, smoking and a dude limping away. The other car had a couple in it, the woman completely freaking out saying that she hit him! Needless to say, the cops blocked off the street, the firefighters had water aimed at the car, and the dude was taken away in a stretcher.

I am actually sitting on my porch writing this blog, and about 5 minutes ago there was almost another accident! Some guy ran the stop sign and the other car going straight thought that beeping would help! Sooo...needless to say, there was a lot of tires screeching and a near accident once again at the corner of Corning and Hale.

Update

So after packing up all my bf's stuff putting it in a large bag, I saw him today and was going to give it back to him. He has been very stressed with work lately and definitely has not been making much of an effort to be a around when I need him. I am faced with making one of the hardest decisions of my life. If I were to break up with him, it would not be because he isn't a super smart, super nice guy. It would be because he is trying to get his life in order and he really doesn't have anything else on his mind at the moment.

We talked today and he told me that at this time in his life he is really trying to grow up, get his work/money/life in order and he really gets scared or stressed to even think about marriage or kids right now. I honestly wouldn't want him to jump into anything drastic without having his life in order so I completely understand. However, I did tell him that I don't know how much longer I can wait for him to be ready. He did tell me that he can picture himself committing to me, however, I know right now he is not sure when that commitment would be made.

I know that I am super emotional and have been with all my past boyfriends, some of which couldn't handle the stress that my emotions can cause. So I know that when I am upset, my emotions definitely take over and I can take things to the next level or make things seem much worse than they really are. So if this past week I have been complaining about my current relationship, while most of it is true, I am not as happy as I would like to be, it is also because I definitely take things to the next level and sometimes blow things out of proportion. Most times, I just need to vent to make myself feel better.

So right now, I do enjoy spending time with my bf and we do have a great crazy time together. I did give him back all his stuff....except for a few dvds which I will keep and probably watch ...haha...and I am going to keep my options open. I am still committed to him (I would never cheat on anyone) however, if I meet someone and things click before current bf besides h is ready for a more grown up relationship, I might just have to move on....but for now..I will take it day by day, have fun with him when I see him, and do my own thing in the when I don't.

Not like I don't have enough stress with work, trying to lose weight and attempting to save money to buy a place. SOO...why add more stress...just one day at time....

Bad Choices

I am not sure what my problem is but when faced with a decision about a relationship I usually make a bad choice. Twice in my life now I have been faced with making a decision between two guys that I was started to date. I personally find it really hard to juggle two guys that I am dating at the same time, so at some point I am forced to make a decision. Both times, the choice that I thought was correct, I thought I was following my heart, ended up to be the bad choice. I am not complaining or wishing that I could turn back time, however, I do want to know how to make a better choice, how to know which guy is better for me. I am just tired of starting a relationship and having the person not be the right one for me. I don't want to me the girl that has a 100 boyfriends and never settles down. HELP! haha.

Pictures from Camp GhettoFabulous

Spending my vacation week in Maine was awesome! Great weather, fun times and fun people. It was a relaxing week with the girls and a great weekend with more friends and family. Here are just a few of the photos that I took while I was on vacation. I look fat in most of them, so I posted most without me in them..haha. Hope you enjoy!

What a beautiful day:)

The Awesome Camp Fire!!


Michelle and John chilling on the boat!


Marc Captain on the aforementioned boat!

Jen, Michelle and I looking hot around the camp fire.

I think it was windy that day;)

CAMP GHETTOFABULOUS!

Feeling sad

I try not to normally write too much personal stuff in my blogs in fear that people will read them and REALLY know my inner thoughts and feelings. But sometimes writing about those things does help with getting the off the mind.

So I have been dating my bf for about 9 months now and over the course of the nine months he seems to have mini breakdown's literally every 3 months (on the dot, no joke). So being 3 months from his last one he decided to have one this weekend. I could kind of feel it coming because last week I could feel him distancing himself. So this weekend came and he disappointed me a couple of times with trying to cancel plans. He is basically obsessed, in love with, and the only thing he cares about is learning for work. He honestly would sit at his computer for the rest of his life, no friends, no family, no sunlight and work at his computer. So I try to get him away from his computer and spend time with me and my friends. Well...this weekend he pretty much indicated that I take up too much of his time (even though I have only been seeing him 2 times a week) and that this being his first relationship he is not sure what he is feeling.

Well....what I am hurt most about is that I spend a lot of money on tickets to his favorite band for his birthday and he is not excited about going and he is definiately not appreciative of the fact that I bought him the tickets. Well, fuck him, fuck this relationship and I am taking the tickets and taking someone else to the damn concert.

I am usually not this evil in my blogs, but I am really hurt about the entire thing and have to do some serious thinking. I feel that I should break up with him and start to date someone that appreciates me and the things that I do for him. I honestly don't even think that he would miss me if I stopped talking to him; he would probably just live in the darkness of his parents basement in front of his computer for the rest of his life; no friends, no fun and no life.

Ok..time to think!

Katherine

For the past 6 weeks....

I have been back in action as a Weight Watcher. Last year on the program, I lost almost 30 lbs....however, I gained it back plus more...and I wasn' t very proud of it. So for the past 6 weeks I have been hitting up the meetings with my friend in hopes of losing the weight that I gained. However, last week I went to Maine for the week and missed the meeting. But I also ate everything that wanted which caused a gain of +.6. However, overall I am still at -7.4-so it was OK. I will just have to get back on track next week.

Tonight at the meeting it was the usual business...most of the same people and some new. There are a few interesting people that come to this meeting. My friend and I have decided to sit on the side almost in the corner behind this larger man. He is probably around my age and it appears that he has been hitting up these meetings for while because he has lost about 30 lbs. However today at the meeting as we are talking about not eating and clearing our homes of all bad food I look over at this guy. He was bending over putting something on the table next to him. Now, I can spot it from anywhere...IT WAS A SNICKER'S WRAPPER!!! Seriously??? At a WW meeting...you felt the need to reach over and do this!??? Oh no you didn't!

Anyway...that is the update from the hoood tonight. I will be back SOOON.

Second Annual Summer Cookout

Since my last post of last year was about my cookout...I decided that being a year later, I should also start my blogging with an update from this years beginnging of summer cookout. Because not many people could make it last year, I decided to make this cookout the weekend before the Fourth of July and because of the intense mosquito situation last year decided to make this cookout in the middle of the day. The tiki torches were still present..of course!!

So...this year a lot more people came. Some of the same people from last year couldn't make it, which was sad (because my cookouts rock!!) but it was still a very fun time.

This year we had a few new additions to the cookout....the volleyball net, the newly painted picnic table, two kids, three Johns, one Sean and also my found skills on the grill!!!

Here are some pictures from the cookout...don't be jealous if you weren't able to come;)~

Back AGAIN!!!

I know a lot of you didn't think that I would EVER be back up and blogging...but here I am..yet again. I know my last post was over 1 year ago, and because that is very sad, I decided that I will start to blog again. There were many exciting things that have happened to me over the past year, many good and many bad, but my spirits were not in the blogging mood.

But I have decided once again, to let everyone read my most inner and personal thoughts!!

Thanks for reading...again...;)~