Is it normal to hate work as much as I do?

I hear people talk about how much they hate their job...but I honestly feel that I hate mine 2349203480934380% more than they do. It's not like I can say, I like what I do, but I don't like the company, or I don't like the people. I honestly hate what I do. Some of the people that I work with are OK, but some of them, I would pay money to never see them again. Ok, this blog may be coming off as kind of harsh, but work is seriously stressing me out lately and a few people at work are the cause of this stress.....

What should I do in this situation? There is not much I can do really....I have a meeting with my boss tomorrow to try to talk to him about some of my concerns, but honestly, he hears and sees what he wants and I really doubt that anything I have to say will change his option or will he be able to give me advice on anything...

So I am left with a delemna, a job that I truly hate and that is ruining my life. I don't sleep, I barely have time for myself and I am constantly stressing. I hate to complain in the form of a blog, But I just needed to get it out there....

I guess I will stick it out for a bit...but for the first time in almost 5 years, I am thinking about looking elsewhere...

Anyone have any suggestions?

Big Decisions

So, I have a pretty big decision to make about my "alien baby". I have actually been thinking about it and obsessing about it all afternoon, after meeting with my Dr and also the surgeon that would be doing the surgery. Basically I need surgery...that's not a question, but the decision of when to have it and to go on a drug that could potentially shrink the fibroids so that the incision is smaller is what is causing my brain to go into meltdown. The drug has some serious side effects and my Dr could do the surgery even if the fibroids are the size they are now (and I need to add that my largest one is HUGE, like a 4 month pregnancy or something like that). I have 3 total, 1 giant and 2 babies.

Right now, I am leaning towards having it down without the drug. That way, I get it over with, I have no drug that will cause me to go crazy, and I will leaned and ready to go for my friend's wedding in June and also be able to enjoy the summer.

Of course, with every major surgery, I am scared and I am doubting every decision that I decide on. I just want to make the right decision, if there is one. Hmm....I guess I will just think about it for a few more days, then call the Dr back and either decide to go on the shot, or schedule the surgery. The earliest I would have surgery if no drug, is late February early March.

I will keep you all posted on the birth of the Alien Child.

Time for a Change

Every so often I feel like I need change. Or a hobby. Or something interesting to spark my creative juices flowing. I am having one of those feeling over the past few months. At first I felt that I needed to put my energy into buying a house. Then I put my energy in trying to lose weight (we all know how that works out for me). Then I decided I need to learn something new or decided what I want to do for work for the REST OF MY LIFE.

So ya, every so often I guess I feel that my life has reach a boring point and I reach for something that is going to stimulate my brain and also make it more exciting to go through the day.

So the other day, I went to Barnes and Noble and picked up a few books on Small Businesses...hmm...maybe I will learn about starting a business?

But I also am thinking that I need a new car (another story). So I might aim for June for the new car thing...I will keep you posted. Let me know if you have any suggestions on cars/SUVs.

Feels Like a Sunday....

but thank got it's only Saturday, phew. Here are a few reasons why it feels like Sunday to me.

1. The level of stress and thinking about work is definitely on a Sunday level.
2. I ate dinner over my parents house, which I usually do on Sunday.
3. The Pats are on
4. John is leaving for Texas tomorrow so he won't be stayng over my house tonight.

So, at least I have tomorrow to REALLY think it feels like Sunday. Hope everyone is having a good weekend. GO PATS!

Beware the Subway at the Liberty Tree Mall

As many of you NoSho natives know the Liberty Tree Mall is pretty known for it's Ghettoness. Besides the movie theater, best buy, Marshall's and Old Navy there is pretty much nothing there (Oh, ya Target is there too). But anyhow, I have gone to the mall food court a few times to enjoy a Subway sub. I am not sure why I keep going back, but I do. The first two times the line just took about 45 minutes to get through with my sub. The person that I went to the mall with literally got her food, sat down and ate before I even had a sub in my hand. The last time that I went I was ready for a long wait; I was prepared. So I waited in line and finally made it to the front and ask for a sub. They didn't have what I wanted, that's OK. So I asked for Ham, didn't have it. Asked for Turkey....nope. Roast beef? Nope....so I finally asked what they have.....they were like Chicken...ok....so they slapped Tereaki chicken on the only piece of stale bread that they had and basically just made my sub asking me nothing about what I wanted on it...and wrapped it. I was a little pissed, but I was on lunch break and I didn't have too much time.....so I then asked for a Diet Coke.....again she looked ME as if I had three heads and was like, "I think we are out, let me check if we have a can hanging around." Was she serious?

So I wanted out of there with a sub I didn't want and probably a 10 year old can of Diet Coke...lol..awesome.

But after relaying this experience to others...I have heard they have also had this experience....wtf....a Subway without deli meat, bread, soda or chips?

Anyway, if you are at the LTM and decided you want lunch hit up McDonalds...

Very Quick Update

I just wanted to update everyone on day 2 of my New Years resolution. Well, I woke up and did 30 minutes of cardio this morning. Went to hell as usual (aka work), counted my WW points throughout the day and night, and then came home and did another workout with John tonight.

Right now I am about to crash....and get ready to wake up bright and early for 30 minutes more cardio tomorrow morning.

Hopefully this lasts longer than a few days!

Just wanted to share....

a super cute picture of my cat! Happy 2008 everyone:)

New Year's Resolution

Each year I make a New Year's Resolution to lose weight. This resolution is mostly for me health wise as well as emotional wise so that I feel better about myself. This year I am not letting this resolution stop before the end of the year. I am at my highest weight probably ever and my health needs it more than ever as well, as surgery is probably on the horizon for me.

So this year, my resolution is to fit into the bridesmaid dress that I will have to fit into in June. To lose weight to feel better about myself and to be healthier.

I want to keep this blog going throughout my journey for both support and to keep me honest. So if I start to get off path..please some get me back on track!!