Sometimes I catch myself thinking about the past. About what I have done wrong and what I should have done. Today I found myself thinking about relationships. I think that a lot of the thoughts were because of a conversation that I had this weekend about relationships, and a lot of the thoughts were about feelings that I miss. I don't go into every relationship with the need to get married and have kids, but I feel that as time goes on the relationship should get more serious, not more distant. Like, I let things bother me...some for good reasons and some because I just feel that I should be selfish sometimes. Like, I really feel that if you are dating someone, their parents should at least know that you exist, or you have met more than one of their friends. I also feel that if you give a gift with a lot of meaning or thought..that they should at least reciprocate. I mean, I am not looking for expensive things here, I am talking a card or flowers........
I mean, I have dated a few people and I have never once received a flower from someone I was dating. I mean, I don't want this to come off selfish at all..it is just something that I was thinking about today. I actually went on two dates with a guy about 2 years ago. This guy actually sent me a dozen roses for my birthday....needless to say....he never picked up his phone afterwards, not even for me to thank him...but honestly...I will remember that bday for ever because of that gesture.. He was the first and only person to give me flowers....odd...I know...
I was also thinking about soul mates....I honestly believe that everyone has a soul mate. I am not sure that everyone belongs with that one person..but I definitely believe that each person has an intense connection with one person. I think this can be very frustrating at times...at least for me. No matter what this one person does to me...I will aways forgive them...no matter how horrible. I honestly don't know what kind of person they are trying to find in this fucked up world...but it is obviously not me....Perhaps someday they will realize that what they are searching for is right there.....
Anyway...Enough of this mooshy stuff...I think I have thought too much about love/relationships today. I promise another happier blog later:)
4 comments:
dude, how profound....and sad man...but SO SO true:)
Hello, I am a random commenter on blogs. It is my profession (as well as a psychic). I feel I have something to say about this blog. You are an introspective and sympathetic individual trapped by the shackles of your ex boyfriend...we'll call him "Rod". Another situation that you are currently debating is that of a guy named "Kevin". I think the best thing to do is make a move to be single before Halloween because that is when the planets will align to bring fresh prospects. The moon will be in SAturn which signifies healthy change and personal growth. I suggest picking up my latest book "the planets and you...the official guide to breaking off relationships and lots more!!" Well I must get back to my crystal ball..it is heating up with more predictions!!
Sometimes I think about the past relationships I've had and why they've failed. And I've realized it's because I refuse to settle. I want a guy who knows he loves me, wants to be with me, and doesn't need to think about whether or not he is ready for "serious." I want a guys who loves my family and our odd sense of humor. But above everything else, I just want someone who takes me as I am. a jeans and sweatshirt type of girl, who likes to just relax and enjoy life. I know there is someone out there i'm meant to be with...
no blog entries since monday, ehh?? perhaps this blog will die as I predicted after all! mwahahahahahaha!
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